Edit: I just re-read this and realized it sounds like I'm talking about some person in specific. I don't think anyone even reads this, so it probably doesn't matter, but just in case, I should have prefaced that this isn't directed to anyone. It's moreso about global issues rather than any one person.

I'm trying to figure out words for this, but I can't really. I get so frustrated with people, and I'm a stewer. I stew. And stew. And stew some more, until I've blown the issue at hand way out of proportion.

I usually get my thoughts sorted out by writing them into words, so it's unbelievably frustrating when I can't find the words to say! Constructive words, that is. I could just say that I don't like you, I don't have anything nice to say about you, we have nothing in common, and my tolerance for your snotty, rude, and judgmental demeanor has run its course.

But for every finger I point at you, I can just as validly point it back at me. Maybe that's why you bug me so much.

I guess it also points to another issue. I know that I am not obligated to like everyone, nor is everyone required to like me. I can accept that. What I have trouble swallowing is fakeness. Not being genuine about how you feel. Again, that probably annoys me because I spend so much of my time isolating myself from other people and hiding how I truly feel.

Ugh, Freud would call this transference. But Freud was a nutcase. Must be what happens when you feed from your daughter's breast milk. True story.